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    23 December

    沉重的肉身

    “也许最沉重的负担同时也是一种生活最为充实的象征,负担越沉,我们的生活也就越贴近大地,越趋近真切和实在。”(《生命中不能承受之轻》)

    得知一位重要的朋友即将奔赴他乡异国,顿生无尽感伤。地球很小,一个人不是在这个经纬交点上,就是在另一个经纬交点上,一个肉身的移动本不能引起他者多大的悲伤,只是往事令人伤感,才促使当下的肉身位移催人落泪。

    生活的真相本来就是沉重的。当年智慧者感叹道:“我专心用智慧寻求查究天下所作的一切事,乃知神叫世人所经练的是极重的劳苦。我见日光之下所作的一切事,都是虚空,都是捕风。”执著于捕风,是人生之常态。正是这执著,使人忧伤使人愁。坏消息一个接一个地来,我不禁感叹世事无常。有些坎,若跨不过去,就只好停于此刻了。你只能确保自己有勇气去尝试跨过这个坎,却无力许诺他人亦有此勇气行。你想过去,他/她却无意如此,你们的故事就只能到此结束。人生路上还有许多种类的坎,过去不过去,全都在于自己的选择。

    谁一定比谁更幸运?老天到底对谁不公平了?每个人都生活在深渊之中,何苦非要抱怨自己比别人更悲惨?这具沉重的肉身不会给我们带来更多的幸运,而缺了它,我们便活得不够真切和实在。周宁先生说得好,“潜意识就是命运,命运就是潜意识”。如果你还不想离开这具肉身,待明朝一觉睡醒发现自己还能呼吸之时,何不对命运之神会心一笑?

    前天晚上睡前突然有较为严重的肠胃炎病症,有那么一瞬间,害怕自己一睡不醒。那时才发现自己多么的贪生,尽管想到死亡能平静以对,但念及爱人们,即泪流不止。想到C.S.鲁益师苦念离世的妻子,我便不忍安然接受自己可能离世的事实——每一个看似健康的人都有可能在睡梦中忽然死去,更何况我年纪轻轻已诸病缠身。我的爱人,我的爱人们,上帝还给我多少背负此具肉身的时间呢?无论是多少,都请你们别抱怨。同样的,我也要学习接受你们终将有一天会抛弃你们的肉身飘然离去的事实,更要珍惜每一个与你们相处的时刻。有什么坎,是值得我们畏惧的呢,只要我们同心前行?

    我活过,而且我曾经很认真地活过。这将是人生之旅最美的总结。

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